down into the drain..

how do you define a friend?? a real true friend??
why they can actually talked bad about you behind and act like nothing happen??
WHY??
or they just want people to think that we are really close but the truth is.. we are not..
what's the point of all this..
can't you tell me in my face like what problem i had..
yes..i know..i might be angry at that time..
but when i cool down and recall everything..
i might realize that it's my fault.. *but not all the time*
we will still get back together.. *don't you think so??*
it would be better than hearing it from other's mouth that you actually talked bad about me behind..
and now what you did is push all the blames to me without thinking what you did..
when i hear what you said about me from my friends..
what i did was just cursing you.. *i know i'm mean but i believe that is what others will do too*
and what you did has make me take a step away from you..
i never go straight to you to confront it..
cause i know you will never admit it..
and why not i just act like i never hear anything and see how everything goes..

at beginning where i started to get closer to you..
i really treated you as a good friend..
but as time passes..
and when i actually realize what had happen behind me..
i was like FUCK!!
so now who's the one who acting like a bitch..
who's the one who had betrayed our friendship at first..

you cant say that i mm song you just because i didn't smile at you..
come on..
who smiles all the time..
everyone has their own mood..
face problem??
i was born like that..
when i don't smile..that's how i look..
a true friend will never ask for their friends to change..
they accept the way they are..

this is my true colours..
i smile when i like..and i don't when i'm not in a good mood..
if i hate someone..i bet that person will knows it..and i will never try to cover it..
because i know i will feel bad for putting a fake smile all the time..
this is who i am..if you like it just take it..if you don't like it you can just walk away..

i know i have lots of attitude problems too..
i mean like who's perfect??
everyone got both good and bad in their attitude and personalities.. kan??

i'm not hoping for anything now..
cause i know it's hopeless..